Call me crazy!!

Ok, I don't believe I am about to say this....but I am considering having some fill taken out. And before you ask, yes I have only had 1 fill. But ever since I got my fill last Monday I have had a real hard time eating. I did the whole day of clear liquids, whole day of full liquids, and then tried mushies. I have not really been able to move past that, I have added in some other more solid food but I still am having trouble. I have started cutting my food up into the tiniest bites (barely will stay on a fork) and still it feels like two or three bites in I have a tightness in my chest. Sometimes I have to get up and walk around and sometimes I have to just stop eating after only 3 or 4 bites. Sometimes I feel that tightness just from drinking - which seems crazy! I just don't think I should have this much restriction yet, and from what I have read this is what people feel like when they have too much fill. I am pretty sure I have lost weight this week, but I have been so uncomfortable and I am getting to the point that I don't even want to eat. I try to stick to just what I can drink. Here's another weird part. I cant really eat chunky soups. Because the liquid and the solid just don't go down together - even with lots of chewing. I don't want to be limited in what I can eat so much that I only eat the bad stuff - because it goes down easy (like shakes & ice cream!). I think I am going to give it the rest of the week to see if gets better, if not, I am going to see if I can get in to the doctor early next week. Just seems like such a shame to me that I have to have fill taken out after the first one and some people have to have 5 or 6 fills before they really feel anything. I guess that is what I was counting on and I wasn't really ready for this "cant eat anything stage"...especially after the post op diet. Plus, I am a little nervous that if I have some taken out it will be a long time before I have restriction again. (Which is pretty crazy thinking I guess since I feel so much restriction after 1 fill). I was so looking forward to having chicken again. I ate it for my meal test before my fill and really haven't been able to have it since then. I have tried a couple times but even though I chew like crazy it is just uncomfortable. I haven't tried putting lots of sauces on it to get it to go down easier because there are so many things that seem like they just don't go down easy. Ugh. Feeling a bit discouraged :(

Spinning

I think I am going to like Spinning. I went to my first class today, and while the instructor has us take it easy (my daughter went with me), it still was sufficiently difficult. I want to go back soon so I can really get in the habit of going and so my butt will get used to it! That part was quite painful.

Questions??

Ok, I am experiencing a couple things and wondering if anyone else has had these issues....I just got a fill yesterday and had clear liquids yesterday and full liquids today and I am actually nervous to eat mushies tomorrow. I feel like things are going down SO differently! I have never heard of anyone having alot of restriction after one fill or feeling like things are going down so slow....I had to actually drink coffee slowly because it felt like it was bubbling on the way down and had to take a few deep breaths along the way...what is up with that? I cant imagine how anything with thickness or substance is going to be able to go down. Anyone else experience this?

The other thing is, I can feel my port! Yikes, I actually had my daughter and my husband feel on my stomach today and they could totally feel it too. Is that normal? Should I be able to feel it by pressing slightly on my stomach? Oh and by the way, I have the low profile port!!! It was actually feeling a little tender which is what made me start feeling around on my stomach to begin with and that's when I felt it. WEIRD! Anyone else out there that can feel their port?

1st Fill

I cant believe it has been a whole week since I blogged...guess I just didn't have much to say. :o) I went for my first fill today. I was really just expecting my 6 week check up and that I would have to come back for a fill, but he did it today. I was a little distracted when he was telling me how much he was putting in and what the total volume so far would be (because I didn't mentally prepare for a fill!!)...but I think he said this would make a total of 4cc so far in my 10cc band. I barely even felt it at all. I was really surprise how quick and painless it was. I manged to lose a couple pounds in the past 4 weeks since I had been there and he seemed to think that was good since I hadn't had my first fill yet. And he reminded me that I should not be in a hurry to lose the weight. That if I was trying to lose 10 lbs in a month that I would have a lot of problems. That I would have to be so "tight" that it would cause me issue with what I would be able to eat. He said I should shoot for 3-5 lbs a month and I should be able to eat just about anything - just much smaller quantities. I am ok with that...of course I would like for it to be closer to the 5 than the 3 but really as long I don't have a bunch of issues I will try to be ok with however the weight comes off. I couldn't help feeling energized when I left there. Like now is when it really begins and I am ready! Ok, so I am not thrilled about the clear liquids today and full liquids tomorrow...but I can deal with 2 days. Oh and the nutritionist came in and talked to me for quite a while...she even told me to feel free to have a margarita today since I am on liquids for the day. I like her alot!! I am also going to join the gym today...right across the street from my subdivision. I have had a membership at the YMCA for some time but really got out of the habit of going and now it seems like it too far away and inconvenient. I am hoping that having access to the gym right across the street will really motivate me to get involved in some of the classes - like spinning...and start weight training again.

Terrible Eating

I ate horribly this whole weekend....especially yesterday. I had snack after snack after snack. It all went down hill after breakfast. It seemed as though I could not find what it was that I wanted to eat so I kept eating everything. And of course the scale is up this morning! Seems I am back to my old ways of eating. I have got to do better with planning meals so I dont just eat constantly. Of course when I get like this it is not really like I am wanting cottage cheese, or fruit, or anything healthy...I want the bad stuff!!!

Wii Bowling Workout?

Last night my daughter and I were playing Wii Bowling. Actually we played a couple rounds of Wii Tennis first and got bored with that and moved on to Bowling. During our second game she starts jumping around and says we should be more active while we are playing this. So then we start doing exercises...like jumping jacks, running in place, push ups, lunges, squats, etc...while the other person was bowling. It was really fun and really quite a workout! We are both sore today pretty much all over our bodies. It was so much easier than just trying to do one exercise after another. Plus you are waiting on the other person to finish bowling so you have to keep going the whole time. If you have a Wii and you want to make it more active than just standing in one spot to play the game, start moving around and doing some exercises...it will definitely be a workout and you might even be sore the next day!

4 Weeks Post-op

I am officially 4 weeks out and have managed to sqeek out another .8 lb loss this week. I still have two more weeks to go before I can have a fill and I am already feeling like it is going to be a long 2 weeks. My eating seems like it is all over the place...mostly just feels like I am snacking all the time. I can now start having ground meat so hopefully that will add some variety to the food and I can be better about real meals and less snacking (and less pizza!)