Friday, February 26, 2010


I am on the downhill of my current rollercoaster. The scale was at a new low this morning. 169.4! The downhill is always so exciting on a roller coaster. Yes, I know that means an uphill is coming but for the moment I will enjoy the exciting feel of the downhill.

This is an exciting new low number for me. It has been 3 year since I have seen this number - and even when I saw it 3 years ago - it was like for 5 minutes and then I proceeded to pack on the pounds. And before that it had probably been 15 years since I had seen that number. Also, that means pretty much from here on out every new low number will be the lowest I have been in 18+ years!!!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Here we go again!

After seeing a new low number on the scale - guess what? I am up 2 lbs. Seems like my rollercoaster ride of up and down is not over. I was thinking this morning after I was reading several other blogs, seems like quite a few people are experiencing this up and down...maybe its the moon? or the pull of gravity? or something like that? For me, I think it may have to do with the fill I got recently. Even though it was a very small fill .2cc - I have felt quite a bit of restriction from it and have found that I am still having alot of liquids or sliders. Mostly because it is easier and other foods are just not comfortable. Not that I have gotten stuck on anything - but more like just an uncomforatble feeling of pressure when I eat. So, I have been having alot more "easy" foods (including ice cream!). It is a little like when I first got the band - during that first six weeks of "healing" time where I ate easy food and didnt really lose much weight. It has been a week since my fill and I am just now feeling like I can eat regular food again. So, I guess like in the first few weeks of banding, I just needed to consider this time as a healing time (from the fill) and hopefully now I am ready to get back to eating the right foods -not the easy stuff, and hopefully that will mean things will start moving again.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Going to the Home Show

My hubby and I are going to the Home Show today. We are planning on a building a house in the next two years or so (after we get the nest emptied). I have been dreaming about building a house for 10+years. I can spend hours on end looking at house plans on the web. I am excited to see what the home show has to offer. I love planning and decorating and organizing so I am excited about the show and the fact that my hubby want to go with me! This is a big step for him cause normally he is not interested in that stuff at all but it was actually his idea to go - which is a great Valentine's gift for me. :) Oh, and the scale actually moved a little more this morning. Down another .6 lbs - YAY!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Got a tiny fill today

I wasnt sure if I needed/wanted a fill - but I already had an appointment scheduled and I havent had a fill since early September. Dr said I still had good restriction - but did give me a tiny fill .2 cc to help me stay full longer. So we will see what happens with this. I definitely dont think it has made me too tight - but then again I am only on liquids today. Hopefully it will be enough to get things moving.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Doesnt take much these days to make me happy!

The scale actually moved a smidgen this morning - down .6 lbs. I know that doesn't sound like a lot but when it has been teetering up and back down 2 lbs, it is exciting when it actually goes to a new low number!!! Now I am only 1.2 lbs away from the halfway mark! Woo hoo!!!

The weird thing is while going up and back down 1-2 lbs here lately I have noticed what a BIG difference it has made on my mood and self-esteem. It is crazy the way an additional .5 lbs can make me feel as big a house, and have crazy thoughts like this just isn't working. And on the other hand a .6 lb loss can make me feel on top of the world. Obviously the scale in my head is on a much different system than the scale under my feet!

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Nothing to say but Thanks!!

So, I haven't posted in a few days because I haven't really had anything to say and in general just feeling kinda blah - but after reading (Amy W.'s blog - not sure if I posted that link right) this morning - I do have something to say.....THANKS AMY!!! Just what I needed to change my perspective and see the glass as half full. You helped me remember that today's a new day - stop fretting about yesterday and tomorrow - and just enjoy today!