2 days after surgery

I am feeling a little better today. I was actually able to sleep in the bed for a few hours last night and took a nap this afternoon. Still have lots of gas pain that I am fighting and cant seem to get much liquid down. I sure hope this is normal. I have had to force myself to have the liquid protein - yuck! I have resorted to mixing it with as little liquid as possible just so I can get it down. Really treating it more like medicine than nutrition. I found myself wanting food today, not because I was hungry and definitely not because I thought it would go down, but because I wanted it to make me feel better. I have had food as a friend for so long I cant help but want to go back to it for comfort. Luckily seeing how I am having a hard time getting juice down I certainly wont even be trying food for quite some time. Also, when I am in pain I cant help but think "what I have I done, why did I do this to myself"?? I know this will pass once I start feeling better and I will be very happy with my decision but honestly right now, it seems like a not so good road to have taken. I have read that people want you to remember how you felt about food right after the surgery so that you can get back to that same feeling later and really start dropping the pounds. I don't want to feel like this later! And if that is the overall goal, then it sucks!! I don't like having to force myself to drink and know that is going to cause discomfort and that I will have to get up and walk around after just a few sips because it hurts. I don't like feeling like I have to burp every time I stand up but yet I cant get anything to come up and it just hurts. I sure hope this get better, its got to right? People wouldn't keep doing this if it didn't get better, right? OK, I am going to stop whining now - I did actually say I was feeling better didn't I? :)