Tomorrow is the Big Day!

I cant believe its actually going to happen. I am actually going to go through with this and it is all happening tomorrow. I have so many hopes and dreams that I am kinda of scared to hope and dream in fear that they will not come true. If you dont hope, you are not disappointed...but that is a very boring life. I want to believe that this is the thing that is really going to work. I have tried so many diets and exercise plans. I have lost weight many times before but it always comes back. I even got certified as a personal trainer. But I felt like such a fraud because I couldnt keep the weight off. I cant help but think, what will it be like....

- to put on a t-shirt and not have to stretch it out so that it doesnt cling to me
- to be able to grab something out of the closet and throw it on and know that it looks decent
- to plan to go to an event and not freak out at the last minute because I can find anything to wear because everything looks horrible on me
- to be able to eat a regular meal and be satisfied with the amount in front of me - especially being able to leave some of it behind
- to be able to buy clothes based on their "cuteness" not on their stretchability
- to be free from food fest nights where the eating is endless even to the point of pain
- to be able to turn over in the bed at night and not have my stomach get in the way

I am sure there are many more, but I will stop there for now. Needless to say, I am looking forward to the possibilities.